Zuriat

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Hi

First of all urusan ini bukan urusan saya. Sy cuma cerita pengalaman dan cerita2 org. Sungguh rezeki ajal maut jodoh itu urusan Tuhan. Kalau kawan2 sebaya mostly dah anak 2 3 dh mostly lah. Tapi masih ada yg single. Kalau yg muda 3 4 tahun pun lebih kurang tu jugaklah. Maybe lebih ramai yg single atau baru kawin.

Nak dijadikan cerita lately sebab ramai yg dh berumahtangga jadi confirm lah nak baby. Katalah ada pasangan ni konon nak honeymoon phase setahun dua mesti in the end kalut jugak berusaha nak baby. Sebab bila berdua tu bosan ke cmane jadi nk lah penyerinya. Macam sebelum sy dihadiahkan zahra. Kalut kemain.. saya lah. Bila asek datang bulan terus rasa down, tak subur ke aku. Jadi amek inisiatif pegi klinik sebab memang nak baby. Doktor scan rahim dan alhamdulillah takde cyst ke ape. Cuma takde telur aka ovum. Jadi doktor bagi ubat utk enhance pengeluaran telur. Bulan berikutnya ya Allah tak pernah sakit macam tu. Mcm period pain pun ada.. tapi tang kiri kanan ari2 je. Ingatkan buah pinggang. Time tu rasa mcm redha je ada ke takde baby. Sakit. Takpe lah takde baby lagi.. sy cuma nak sihat. Pegi klinik lagi. Doktor scan lagi.. dia ckp ovari bengkak. Maybe efek ubat tu paksa ovum keluar ke mcm mana. Tapi telur masih takde. Redha. Sungguh redha. Lepas tu dah tak kira period lagi dah. Malas nak semakkan kepala. Tapi mcm boleh bajet dah lewat lebih seminggu. Dlm 10 hari. Mulalah otak ni pikir lain pulak. Sakit ke aku. Ke sebab ubat hari tu. Adoiii. Tapi takut nk g klinik lg. Safest thing to do masa tu cek dulu pregnant ke tak. Kalo tak, baru risau sakit ke ape. Sekali alhamdulillah ada zahra rupanya.

Ini cite adik zahra pulak. Memang takde planning apa2 pun. Husband mmg nk baby. Tapi sebab masih menyusu badan mungkin hormon lambat sikit. Time tu mulalah rasa frust sorg2. Walaupun husband cakap takpe. Tapi naluri perempuan ni memang tak boleh elak. Adik pulak dah pregnant anak ke2. Lagi lah. Lol. Ada terdetik ke nak gi klinik lagi cek. Tapi mau kena debik ngn doktor sebab zahra belum pun lagi 2 tahun kan. Jadi sy igt nak ushar ubat zuriat yg org jual online. Ushar je tak beli pun. Time tu byk sgt false pregnancy symptoms. Macam memberi harapan sgt. Tapi last2 period jugak. Sampai satu masa sy decide nak kerja. Jadi malas pikir baby ke benda lain. Sy nak fokus kerja.. maybe study. Plan nih dalam kepala nak beli baju cantik2, nak pkai heels balik, nak fokus zahra je tak kisahlah sampai dia umur berapa pun baru dapat adik. Husband bawak jalan2, makan sedap2, happy2. Sekali rasa lain macam time subur. Tapi malas nk berharap sangat. Pastu missed period 1 hari je. Sy ni jenis period punctual atau mesti awal sehari dua. Suami duk laut pun tak menyabar nak gak cek kan. Gigih gi beli pregnancy test sorg2. Alhamdulillah dah 3 minggu lebih time tu. Agak2 kira terjadi time kat cameron highland. Haha.

Kesimpulannya dalam kes saya, bila stress, ape pun tak jadi. Tapi bila redha, berharap cuma dgn Allah, dan happy2 alhamdulillah Allah beri. Ape kita pikir sangat memberi efek pada tubuh badan kita seriously. Sebab tu kalau ada family members, kawan2 tanya tips2 utk pregnant itu je yg sy mampu suggest. Ya, penting utk cek klinik takut2 ada sakit. Nauzubillah. Tapi kalau dua2 sihat, insyaAllah lambat cepat mesti ada. Yg penting positif. Tapi, memanglah senang cakap daripada sendiri pikul kan? Disebabkan orang ckp org pregnant ni doa senang makbul, sy doakan kawan2 yg nak baby tu dpt baby cepat2 insyaAllah. Positif!

Ok tu je sebuah catatan seorang umi di tepi buai anaknya yg sedang tidur kemain sedap sebab hujan dan sejuk. Baby dlm perut pun diam je tido lettew. Umi pun nak join sekaki. Kbai.

Ps : selsema sebenarnya ni. Sian baby. Jom kita cepat sihat baby!

Satu

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Sorry for extra mushiness. Make way for the mushy train.

Today marks a milestone of our marriage. One year. Weird, it doesnt feel like a year. It still feels like yesterday he took tok kadi's hand and said those akad. It still feels like yesterday i heard the word SAH and i saw him turned around looking at me with the biggest smile i have ever seen. He wasnt even nervous. It still feels very much like yesterday.

It is true, you only know a person once you marry him/her. Yes, he is the same azrul in a way. But as a husband, he is so much more. So much more kindness. So much more love.

All i want to say is, thank you, husband. For everything that you have done for me, for us. Thank you for your patience, love, lessons. And i want to say im sorry too. Im sorry im such a baby. Im sorry for my mood swings, for my muncungs. Marrying you is the best thing that has ever happened to me. I feel alive everyday, i look forward to tomorrow. I learn new things. I become a better person.

I still remember the first time you become the imam for our solat. I think i started to feel a lot like a wife after that. Some kind of realisation just hit me. Right in the feels that i cried. And i love how i wish you good night every night and i'd say i love you. And you will say "i love you more" every single time. You just know how to make me smile in my sleep.

Husband,
Thank you.

Ps : lil baby kicked ayah for the first time hari tu. Husband felt it. Huhu wait for the big ones in coming months.

Mister-can-do-it-all

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Some days can be gloomy to Ansari.

But alhamdulillah there is her Azrul.

Maybe its that silly walk he has. Maybe its his camel shorts. Maybe its his rayban glasses. Maybe its his shaved moustache. Maybe its his beard. Maybe its the way he laughed with the cashier girl at the gas counter. Maybe its the smile he gave me when he walked back to the car. Maybe its the hand gesture he made signing crazy.

Some things he did purposefuly or accidentally, makes my day better. When i feel like shit and i cant see anything is going right for me, he proves he can turn everything around just by being him.

Thank you my dearest partner in crime, my bolster, my stress ball, my mirror, my anchor, my superman, the one who holds my heart in one hand, the one who fills it just by being present. My bestest friend.

Ps : we played kinect at ibu's house. He's leading at every game especially Just Dance. I cant believe this is happening. My husband dances to girls' songs better than i do. Lol. We should have a picture taken or a video recording our dance moves. We must look like idiot. Me especially, with the bump. XD

2 sen

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Sebab lately banyak sangat post ibu2 & isteri2 compare2 sesama mereka. Rasa terselam sama. Contohnya, surirumah vs ibu bekerja di luar. Breastfeed vs formula milk feed. Beranak caeser vs beranak normal. The way i see it, ibu2 ni nak rasa dihargai, tu je. Dia rasa tak dihargai oleh family members terutamanya husband, tu yg dia cerita betapa payah nya tugas dan perkara yg dorang terpaksa lalui. Tanpa sedar, topik tu melukakan hati orang lain yg melalui perkara of complete opposite tp realitinya, dia pun berkorban dan bersusah payah demi anak suami dan keluarga. Honestly, mana ada ibu yg nak benda tak elok dekat anak dia. Tolak tepi kes terpencil yg dera anak sendiri. Semua ibu2 nak yg terbaik utk anak dan keluarga dia. Pandangan setiap org berbeza, situasi yg Allah letakkan dia pun berbeza jadi cara dia handle mestilah berbeza. Bila bincang2 pasal ni lama2, kita faham, kau dan aku berbeza tapi niat kita sama. Dan ujian kita berbeza sebab tu cara kita overcome berbeza. Gitu.

I wont go into details each situations sebab sungguh, situasi setiap org berbeza dan macam2. Takde yg sama lah so far sy borak dgn kawan2 ibu2. Tp sy percaya semua orang nak happy. Semua org nak dihargai. Semua org sebenarnya berkorban utk keluarga masing. Korban perasaan, korban cita2, korban penat lelah, korban kesakitan fizikal dan mental. Sape lagi nak faham ibu2 kalau bukan ibu2 yg lain. Kesian kes terjun bangunan sebab tak boleh susukan anak. Entah berapa ramai lagi tekanan kita tak tau. Spread love and positivity. Kindness gives ripples that will come back right at you insyaAllah.

Ps : zahra panggil baby meow. -.-" dah lama tak borak pasal zahra. Next post

Domestic Engineer

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Everyone i used to know must be so proud of me now. I used to be known for my love of sleep and how im a nocturnal. And being an ummi makes me a morning person. I wake up super early every morning and i rarely has power naps. I do morning grocery shopping. In fact, as soon as the Aeon store near our house opens. And i cook 3 meals a day. Do laundry every day. Hahaha even i cant believe the sound of that. But its true. Its 10.49 am and im already bored. I told my husband that im bored because there is "nothing to do". Husband said, wait lah next year, you'll have a handful. God that is so true. So i have a few months of boredom before the chaos. Huhu.

Referring to previous post, i have chosen my road. It was actually my dilema of choosing between working and being a stay at home mom. By working, im not saying that lightly. I mean a job i like, a job i really look forward for years, something i know, something i'd like to learn more, something i would be proud of. Its sad, really. For the record, no, its not a teaching post. I think im meant for more than being a teacher. And i had it in my hand. I was offered a job i thought i didnt get. Remember the job interview i had months ago? They called for a second interview. Its a funny story because i thought i didnt get it when actually they were waiting for my reply. Total misunderstanding. Maybe my lack of understanding work jargons. But they're still interested in having me. But they wanted me to start immediately like a week after that. I consulted my husband. He knows how much i want the job. But both of us know the real issue is zahra. Being clingy parents i cried my heart out that night talking to him about how much im worried about leaving her too soon. We dont even have a chance to look for a proper nursery. I mean, there will always be a nursery who can accept zahra but will it be good enough. Our plan was we take at least a month of eyeing good nursery and scrutinise every details. Why so picky? There are a lot of child abuse cases by nannies. Let alone the kidnapping. And of course because of the fact that zahra is very hard to handle these days. Since she totally drinks formula milk we found her to be easily throwing tantrums and cry a lot just for some silly reasons or no reason at all. Its a phase actually and we're afraid that some people do not know how to cope with that resulting hitting her or scolding her. God forbids. And honestly, my husband worries about that more than i do.

My husband said i should take a few days to think it through. I was so cornered. That company even said the salary is raised a little since their first offer. T.T i asked my mom and my sister. Frankly i would be easier if someone decides it for me. But all of them said it is all up to me. So i guess i should ask Allah. What would a good wife and a good mother do. Of course, stay close to her family. So i go with that. As soon as i told my decision to my husband, he immediately thanked me for choosing to stay home. He knows how much i wanted it so i guess he figures that this is my sacrifice for the family. And oh boy how excited he was when i told him about that. -.- wait wait wait. I told the company about my decision. And they would still wait for me. Huhu. Idk lah in the future kan?

So im 29, married, pregnant with my second baby, with an almost toddler daughter, a stay at home mom. May Allah ease our journey and shower us with endless rizq and love. Same goes to all of you readers too. Some roads are easy. Some are hard. Some are meant for you. Some are meant for others. But if you walk your road proud and happily, even the hardest road be fun. There are obviously so many things for me to learn being a mom, thats why Allah put me here and i thank Him for that. Notice that i write roads and not destinations? Because our destination is the after life. Lets do our best building today for a great tomorrow.

Ps : im a yay close to start writing a book. Argh. I need books.