assalamualaikum
hi
after one month of searching and endless applications sent to companies, i got a job! hip hip hooray! it was near us like 15 mins from home. notice the tense though. i politely declined the offer. even though during the interview i told them things were all figured out. apparently, my husband thinks its best i stay at home and care for the kids. i have to agree with him, not by force, because admit it, the kids are still small, especially muaz. we may sound like we're clingy parents, my husband especially, but im glad he is. im glad he sees that the kids need me with them, im glad that my husband said "i dont think there's anybody out there who can take care of zahra and muaz as good as you do". im glad he sees that im doing the best i can.
and this may be my another sacrifice to the family, but its a sacrifice i am willing to make. and i do it for us. because deciding for the job, he was a bit vague about whether or not i should take it, and knowing how he is, i knew it wasn't right and i rejected the offer even he didn't say the words. he even asked me why i did it. i dont know. it the things you do for your loved ones, for your family. because you are one of them, because perhaps this is not as good as it sounds like, perhaps there is a much better offer in the future, God willing.
as of now, im taking my sweet time staying at home, playing with the kids. because zahra will turn 4 next year, she's gonna be attending preschool, so i still have a few months left treating her like a baby. uhuu.
I found a love for me
Darling, just dive right in and follow my lead
Well, I found a girl, beautiful and sweet
Oh, I never knew you were the someone waiting for me
'Cause we were just kids when we fell in love
Not knowing what it was
I will not give you up this time
But darling, just kiss me slow,
Your heart is all I own
And in your eyes you're holding mine
Baby, I'm dancing in the dark
With you between my arms
Barefoot on the grass,
Listening to our favourite song
When you said you looked a mess,
I whispered underneath my breath
But you heard it,
Darling, you look perfect tonight
Well, I found a woman, stronger than anyone I know
She shares my dreams, I hope that someday I'll share her home
I found a lover to carry more than just my secrets
To carry love, to carry children of our own
We are still kids but we're so in love
Fighting against all odds
I know we'll be alright this time
Darling, just hold my hand
Be my girl, I'll be your man
I see my future in your eyes
Baby, I'm dancing in the dark
With you between my arms
Barefoot on the grass
Listening to our favourite song
When I saw you in that dress
Looking so beautiful
I don't deserve this
Darling, you look perfect tonight
Baby, I'm dancing in the dark
With you between my arms
Barefoot on the grass
Listening to our favourite song
I have faith in what I see
Now I know I have met an angel in person
And she looks perfect,
I don't deserve it
You look perfect tonight
ps: its been a while since the last time my oven bakes something. cake tomorrow?