Favourites

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As a human being, zahra has developed favourites all the way through her growing process. Truth is, favourites dont come from other people, it is us, what makes us different. You see, i thought i can shape her the way i want her to be.. i cant. She is who she is. She likes what she likes, she wants what she wants. I mean, we can try persuade her, but it is up to her to decide. And as a mom, i try to give as much freedom as i can and as im allowed to give. I let her choose. I give options. And seeing her choose is actually a wonderful feeling. I feel like she's very human. And actually will grow become a person. An actual person. Who someday will make bigger choices everyday. That i hope, will refer to me and her ayah along the way.

Well, lets see.. her favourites. Right boob over left one i dont know why.She really loves chicken, chicken curry, fried chicken, chicken soup.. anything as long as there is chicken. She really loves water thats why we would take her to the waterfall near husband's kampung everytime we balik kampung. And she'd be jolly grinning to her ears  She has her favourite channel now, baby first in hypp tv. She wont be happy if i change the channel. She likes the steering wheel, we even bought a steering wheel toy for her in the car, so she'd stay in the carseat longer without screaming. And her favourite toys would be her books. Haha she has me as a mom so what do you expect. Her favourite books are the princess series with pop up pictures. She'd ask me to read them a gazillion times i can practically memorise the whole book series. Her favourite person, her ayah.. she literally cant sleep if my husband is out of state for his work so he would leave a shirt he had worn the night before with his smell on it, and i'd put the shirt beside her every night until husband gets home. Or else, she'd be restless during the night and she'll have those little cries i dont even know what. And the both of them will have video calls everyday, husband even cries. -.- i dont know but those two are seriously unseparable. And oh, if zahra hears a motorcycle or a car drove by, she'd think that her ayah is home and runs to the door whispering "ayah ayah". That actually breaks my heart. :( so when the two are together, it would be as if i dont exist.. well, i only exist if zahra needs her sleep or milk. Thanks guys. -.-

Other than that, zahra's favourites will come as she grows up i guess, she still doesnt know colors so she doesnt really care if i put a blue shirt on her, we arent really color coordinated, im not that kind of mom who'd buy a closet full of pink clothes just because she's a girl. And considering im breastfeeding and also giving her formula milk alternately, she has her mood for formula and breast milk.. not to a point she totally resist ummi's milk. She also has discover her writing hand. Guess is she a right handed person or a left handed person? She's a leftyyyy. Yay. Husband is probably the happiest person. I dont know why husband likes a lefty so much. Haha. I remember i was talking to my mom in law about husband.. so mil told me that husband used to told her that he'd only marry a girl if she has perfect teeth and if she's a left handed. So mil told me "takkan mak nak suruh calon2 menulis depan mak.. nah amek ko pen ni tulis". Hahaha. I laughed so hard. And yes, i have perfect teeth and im a lefthanded. *flips hair

Anyway, point is, discovering your daughter's favourites is another definition of happiness. You'd see her as a maturing person, not a baby anymore. I mean, she can choose now, likes and dislikes, its overwhelming for me. And trust me i cant persuade her much because honestly she is as stubborn as i am.

Ps : this season got will end next week. Argh

Well, who knows?

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So i was accompanying husband at his usual jogging recreational park near our house. Honestly, that was my first time there. I never knew it would be that beautiful.. despite being in the heart of Kuala Lumpur, which one might think there is no possible way such a place exist, it was mesmerizing. Yes, we can see the highway, traffic and all, but it was surprisingly quite.

Being a milo girl, i was only there as husband's cheerleader. Considering my mom is in town, we left zahra home.. so it was a very me-time i could use as a pause from life. Lol. Sad but true. But not THAT sad in reality. Well, you know the details. Perks of being a full-time housewife.

Anyway, after lots of ponders and uhhhs and ahhhs what a wonderful world, i remember what meowth used to say. Ya, im a pokemon freak. Too much nintendo pokemon ruby i guess.

"We do have a lot in common. The same air, the same Earth, the same sky. Maybe if we started looking at what's the same instead of always looking at what's different,

...well, who knows?"

-- Meowth

Ps: have you listened to the latest muse album? Like whoaa i missed you matt.

Bright

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Bright

I think the universe is on my side
Heaven and Earth have finally aligned
Days are good and that's the way it should be

You sprinkle star dust on my pillow case
It's like a moonbeam brushed across my face
Nights are good and that's the way it should be

You make me sing oh, la, la, La
You make a girl go oh oh
I'm in love, love

Did you see that shooting star tonight?
Were you dazzled by the same constellation?
Did you and Jupiter conspire to get me?
I think you and the Moon and Neptune got it right
'Cause now I'm shining bright, so bright
Bright, so bright

And I see colors in a different way
You make what doesn't matter fade to grey
Life is good and that's the way it should be

You make me sing oh, la, la, la
You make a girl go oh oh
I'm in love, love

Did you see that shooting star tonight?
Were you dazzled by the same constellation?
Did you and Jupiter conspire to get me?
I think you and the Moon and Neptune got it right
'Cause now I'm shining bright so bright
And I get lost in your eyes

Did you see that shooting star tonight?
Were you dazzled by the same constellation?
Did you and Jupiter conspire to get me?
I think you and the Moon and Neptune got it right
I think you and the Moon and Neptune got it right
I think you and the Moon and Neptune got it right*
'Cause now I'm shining bright, so bright
Bright, so bright
And I get lost in your eyes tonight

<3

My roommate's birthday

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Here is a late post of my husband's birthday. His 29th. Hehe old ady. I wanted to write something mushy but i dont want people to puke on their keyboards. Keyboards can be expensive. Lol

But i want to thank the man i love so very dearly with all my heart for being who he is, doing what he's doing and simply for being here. He should know he's an amazing person, kind hearted and honest. And that is even underrated.

Tq for being alive for 29 years, baby. I thank Allah for that. I hope you have learned so much along the way. But if its not much, its ok, because life is teaching us everyday.. and honestly i have so many things to learn too. And im glad you're here with me.. to learn. To hold. And to love. Come and lets grow old together.. for the best is yet to be. <3

Ps: we went to see lil akhdan bakhtiar last night.. we later watched the latest episode of got which is superrrr awesome!

6 Mac 2014

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Hi

Hari ni mood nak cerita pasal pengalaman bersalinkan zahra tahun lepas. Dah setahun 3 bulan. Saje lah mane tau nanti nak bacakan tuk zahra sebagai night time stories. Just to let her know the sufferings. Lol. Ini kalau cerita kat hubby mesti dia buat muka seram. Pastu ouch ouch. Cane nak teman masuk labour room sekali adik zahra nnti. Haha

Arakian bermula kisah 4 mac. Ada spotting. Oleh kerana dah 9 bulan tak period, jadi kelibat darah ni macam pelik pulak. Haha. Pastu duk doubt sendiri betul ke darah betul ke? Pastu konfem lah ada darah sikit dalam 2 3 titik. Pastu ape lagi gelabah tetek la. Alhamdulillah ada ibu, family dan kawan2 yg berpengalaman benar dlm sektor2 bersalin ni. Maksu pun every pregnancy mesti keluar darah mcm tu lah time nak bersalin. Ketuban darah org kampung panggil. Ok boleh keep calm kat rumah. Tapi tak de lah keep calm sgt pun. Sbb minggu2 last tu dh ada contraction main2. Braxton Hicks org putih panggil. Contraction main2 atau ajar2. Bes wooo. Macam period pain kejap ada kejap takde. Tapi entah lah weh.. time pregnant kan zahra adalah masa sy paling kuat. Ansari the iron woman betul time tu. Nak nangis tahan. Nak merengek tahan. Buat poker faceeee je. Sepanjang 2 hari tu contraction jadi lebih kuat. Takde main2 dh la. Tp sebab most kawan2 ckp takyah pegi spital, so tak pegi. Duk umah je. Ibu dan adik2 memang standby je. Hp je melekat kat tgn je. In case nak call emergency kalau takde org kat umah.

Sampai lah satu malam semacam je contraction tu. Tp sy ni kan suka install benda2 pelik dlm henpon. So sy install contraction counter. Sgt berguna tau! Sakit je klik. Dh habis klik lagi. Dia boleh catat masa brapa lama contraction. Dan gap from one another. Time tu pukul 12 malam. Ibu dh masuk tido. Tp ada adik laki, Habibi, kitorg duk tgk movie sama2. Dah bagitau dia, rasanya lain macam sgt. Dia dh ada anak sorg so dia tau la nak handle org nak bersalin ni. Dia suh g spital je. Sy cakap belum lagi. Sbb contraction gap belum 5 minit sekali. Gigih lah duk menahan. Pastu duk pikir ni kalau aku bersalin jap lagi ada tenaga tak. Siap sempat makan nasik tau. Haha. Pukul 1 mandi. Semayang. Pukul 3 mcm tu contraction dh 5 min sekali. So dh smpai masa gi spital. Kejut ibu dan kitorg bertiga gi spital sama2.

Nak dijadikan cerita, keta ibu mati halfway nak sampai hospital tau takk. Pukul 3 pagi. Dgn sy every 5 mins contraction. Tp mcm boleh tahan lagi. Takde contraction sampai rasa nak menjerit pun. Seb baik lah mala n ejat datang. Bawak 2 keta. Mala bawak sy n ibu ke hopital. Ejat setel keta ngn habibi. Kelakar jgk time tu. Lol. Pastu register. Mala cakap muka sy tak macam nak bersalin pun. Haha

Sampai tu pakai skirt. Misi suh tukar kain sarung. Kawan2 nak gi bersalin takyah pakai lawa2 mcm saya tau. Pakai je kain sarung. Jenuh pulak nk tukar. Xyah pakai panties. Pastu acara berdebar iaitu cek jalan. Sebab byk baca doktor cek jalan sakit. Agak berdebar la. Alhamdulillah tak sakit. Tapi keluar darah banyak.. takut gila time tu. Pastu doktor cakap dah 4 cm. Maksudnya takperlu tahan dlm wad. Boleh masuk labour room terus. Alhamdulillah malas jugak nak tunggu dlm wad kan. So, nasihat sy, kira betul2 masa contraction. Berapa lama each contraction. Pukul berapa start. Gap each contraction tu berapa lama sebelum gi hospital. Paling cantek 5min sekali tu baru pgi hospital. Kalau tak pecah ketuban la. Kalau ketuban dh pecah silalh cepat2 ke hospital. Takut baby lemas pulak.

Pastu ini cerita dalam labour room. Takuttt sangat. Tapi sebab sakit so rasa nak cepat2 lah baby keluar. Dah la sorang kan. Tak sempat nak rasa sedih pun time ni. Rilek je. Allah ada.. teman sy sepanjang proses bersalin. Sebab tu kuat. Hehe alhamdulillah. Lama jugak lah rasanya. Tp ibu cakap cepat je dh bersalin. Sebab masuk labour room pukul 4 pagi. Pukul 11.44 pagi zahra dah keluar. Sepanjang duk dlm labour room tu ramai la misi n doktor keluar masuk. Cek jalan sesuka hati atuk dia. Geram jgk time tu tapi malas nk layan sebab sakit perut. Dah lupa dah nurse ke doktor yg pecahkan ketuban sy. Huhu. Haa lepas pecah ketuban tu sakit dia ya Allah contraction bertambah berkali2 ganda. Cuba baca ayat kursi satu ayat tu tak sempat habis pun. Dorg tampal byk ayat2 dlm labour room tu. Tgh jalan contraction, sampai lupa td berenti kat mana. Baca balik, sakit lagi tgh jalan. Tp baca je. Sampai lah sy dah tak tahan sgt. Doktor dtg cek contraction sy kuat tapi jalan bukak slow. Pastu dorg bagi ubat tahan sakit. Yg buatkan sy tertido. Siap mimpi lagi tau. Haha Seriously tertido dalam labour room. Tau2 rasa macam nak meneran. Nurse pun berkejaran tengok kepala baby dh keluar. Ape lagi.. mula la sesi meneran. Alhamdulillah amalan suka membaca mmg membuahkan hasil la kat sini. Haha. Sy teringat ape sy baca, cara2 teran nurse pun puji pandai. Hehe. Kejap je zahra dah keluar. But still, time bila jarum air kat tangan tu boleh tercabut pun tak sedar. Btw, cara meneran yg sy baca, dan buat time tu adalah: dua2 tangan pegang buku lali. Jangan angkat punggung! Nanti koyak. Amek nafas dan teran ikut arahan nurse. Jgn lah lawan kata nurse tu. Dia lebih tau.

Pastu bila baby dh keluar yg mula2 sy perasan adalah rambut dia. Haha lebat gilaaa. Pastu dia merengek2 sikit. Nurse letak atas dada. Haa lagi satu. Nak masuk labour room takyah pakai bra lah. Senang baby nk meniarap. Time tu sy pakai bra so terganggu sikit. Sempat peluk zahra sambil ucap Allahuakbar ulang2. Mesti nurse pelik. Haha. Tak tau kenapa mcm kagum gila teran keluar manusia. Sungguh kagum. Pastu zahra kena bawak ngn misi utk doktor azankan. N bersih2. Dlm 45 minit sesi menjahit. Kena gunting kut. Sakit jgk la kena jahit tp doktor tu baik. Bual2 ngn sy. N bila sy cakap sakit, dia akan letak bius lagi. Alhamdulillah mudah. Pastu rindu anak dah. Haha. Nak peluk dia lagiii.

Pastu masuk lah wad bla2 stay satu malam. Adik sy ishah n putri yg temankan. Zahra pun tak kuning jadi esoknya pukul 12 tgh hr dah boleh keluar. Maka bermulalah hidup berteman tangisan dan ketawa kecik.

Alhamdulillah Allah tunai permintaan sy utk proses bersalin yg mudah walau tak berteman. Allah beri kekuatan yg sy xtau sy ada pun, utk melalui semua tu. Zahra memang hadiah paling best dlm dunia. :")
Btw, usm best sgt. Staff baik. Layanan baik. Nanti nak beranak sana lagi. Haha. Macam tak perlu je bersalin hospital swasta kalau setakat nak kena czer. Haa sebenarnya plan nk bersalin kat annisa tau. Dh nk book bilik. Jumpa doktor pakar, boleh dia cakap baby kecik n air ketuban sikit. Sebagai org yg berpelajaran tinggi, sy gi scan kat klinik lain. Klinik ang. Doktor ang ckp air ketuban ok je. Hampeh. Sorry la tak tau la nape doktor annisa ckp mcm tu tp pada pandangan sy, dia nk tipu so, sy akan induce dan memandangkan kepala baby belum masuk jalan lagi, mmg tinggi chance sy akan kena czer. Haa seb baik sy gi cek klinik lain. Takde maknanya nak czer, sy nk body lawa dan beranak ramai lagi tau doktor. Haha. Bersalin je kat klinik kerajaan ke separa kerajaan lagi bagus. Dorang akan cuba gak sedaya upaya make sure kita dpt bersalin normal. Lagipun byk lagi cara lain kan, forsep, vacum. Ape hal tah sesuka ati nk bedah2 orang. Most kawan2 ramai yg czer skrg. Syg nye body. :(

Ps: ok ttbe rasa rindu perut buncit. Haha