Favourites

Assalamualaikum

As a human being, zahra has developed favourites all the way through her growing process. Truth is, favourites dont come from other people, it is us, what makes us different. You see, i thought i can shape her the way i want her to be.. i cant. She is who she is. She likes what she likes, she wants what she wants. I mean, we can try persuade her, but it is up to her to decide. And as a mom, i try to give as much freedom as i can and as im allowed to give. I let her choose. I give options. And seeing her choose is actually a wonderful feeling. I feel like she's very human. And actually will grow become a person. An actual person. Who someday will make bigger choices everyday. That i hope, will refer to me and her ayah along the way.

Well, lets see.. her favourites. Right boob over left one i dont know why.She really loves chicken, chicken curry, fried chicken, chicken soup.. anything as long as there is chicken. She really loves water thats why we would take her to the waterfall near husband's kampung everytime we balik kampung. And she'd be jolly grinning to her ears  She has her favourite channel now, baby first in hypp tv. She wont be happy if i change the channel. She likes the steering wheel, we even bought a steering wheel toy for her in the car, so she'd stay in the carseat longer without screaming. And her favourite toys would be her books. Haha she has me as a mom so what do you expect. Her favourite books are the princess series with pop up pictures. She'd ask me to read them a gazillion times i can practically memorise the whole book series. Her favourite person, her ayah.. she literally cant sleep if my husband is out of state for his work so he would leave a shirt he had worn the night before with his smell on it, and i'd put the shirt beside her every night until husband gets home. Or else, she'd be restless during the night and she'll have those little cries i dont even know what. And the both of them will have video calls everyday, husband even cries. -.- i dont know but those two are seriously unseparable. And oh, if zahra hears a motorcycle or a car drove by, she'd think that her ayah is home and runs to the door whispering "ayah ayah". That actually breaks my heart. :( so when the two are together, it would be as if i dont exist.. well, i only exist if zahra needs her sleep or milk. Thanks guys. -.-

Other than that, zahra's favourites will come as she grows up i guess, she still doesnt know colors so she doesnt really care if i put a blue shirt on her, we arent really color coordinated, im not that kind of mom who'd buy a closet full of pink clothes just because she's a girl. And considering im breastfeeding and also giving her formula milk alternately, she has her mood for formula and breast milk.. not to a point she totally resist ummi's milk. She also has discover her writing hand. Guess is she a right handed person or a left handed person? She's a leftyyyy. Yay. Husband is probably the happiest person. I dont know why husband likes a lefty so much. Haha. I remember i was talking to my mom in law about husband.. so mil told me that husband used to told her that he'd only marry a girl if she has perfect teeth and if she's a left handed. So mil told me "takkan mak nak suruh calon2 menulis depan mak.. nah amek ko pen ni tulis". Hahaha. I laughed so hard. And yes, i have perfect teeth and im a lefthanded. *flips hair

Anyway, point is, discovering your daughter's favourites is another definition of happiness. You'd see her as a maturing person, not a baby anymore. I mean, she can choose now, likes and dislikes, its overwhelming for me. And trust me i cant persuade her much because honestly she is as stubborn as i am.

Ps : this season got will end next week. Argh