Im not the wolf. Im merely an owl who waits for the moon.

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Hi

Waa lama nya tak update belog. Tapi you know why right? Parenthood. Zahra dah pandai membebel sekarang. Mulut potpet2 24 jam. Segala benda lah dia buat mcm henfon, letak kat telinga dan bebel lagi dan lagi. Ala2 umi gayut dgn ayah lah mcm tu. Lol. Dah cucuk punggung 18 bulan. She's officially 1 year and a half. So big ady kakak2 sgt. Sedang brush up teknik penyuapan susu kepada bayi2 sebagai persediaan utk dpt adik kut. Ekseperimen selalunya pd anak patung hello kitty dia. Dan lamb yg dia panggil baa baa. Haa Mala baru melahirkan baby girl baru dorg, belum confirm nama tapi maybe nama Lili. Hehe omey macam kakak dia, Dhiya. Yay to new addition. Ciklong so happy the girls circle is getting bigger.

Life is good i guess alhamdulillah. Walau bosan tapi masih tetap alhamdulillah. Kawan2 yg sebaya duk komplen rindu anak2 etc, jadi rasa bersyukur sgt Allah beri peluang duduk rumah. Honestly, rasa nak kerja membuak2 sgt. Tak tipu langsung! So far dh attend few interviews. And one is my dream job. Macam kalau dpt kerja tu, rasa sangat bes bagai berada dipuncak dunia. Tak pernah rasa macam ni considering my career history. Yes, im hoping i get the job. Tapi kalau xdapat, ada lah tu hikmah dia, contohnya, zahra masih perlukan perhatian. Husband is very supportive, like i get a few job offers yg confirm dapat but he insisted that if i were getting back to work, i have to do it because i like the job. And among the many jobs i applied and attended interviews, there is that only one job yg mmg to die for. Will pay me poorly but its my dream job. Haha nampak tak gila meroyan sbb nak kerja tu?? I ranted for like 24 hours pasal tu husband tadah je telinga. Lol.

Anywho, other perks of being a full time mom, im very tv bound. Or frankly, pc bound. Sebab the both of us laki bini baru lepas habis 7 years of tv series, sons of anarchy. Comments? Perghh. That is all we can say. Go search it and watch it! We mean it people. Husband is still in limbo of it, still cant accept the fact that its over (for us). He refuses to watch any other movies or series yet. But we watched mr robot & dragon balls in between but they dont count. We have weird system about that. Hence the draught season of this blog. Habis tu mane nak fokus anak lagi tv lagi writing lagi. Even my reading time freezes tau. :p but its back on track and im looking forward to buy that latest book of lang leav. Any one wants to join me to kinokuniya?

one of the series' ost. do listen

Ps: this goes to my husband, walaupun abg dah balik malaysia, im so proud of you. You deserve everything under the sun for your service and good work. And we love you. :*

Redemption

assalamualaikum


***pejam mata

rasa tak ombak dalam dada hempas pasir tangkai jantung? jantung jatuh :)

jantung jatuh tu term 2004. being a weird undercover poet, i was describing to husband my chest pain every time he does something sweet (or just because i fell so in love with him). it was so hard to explain that to him because he was a heartless physics freak. so i said, exactly macam jantung jatuh. (kena panah petir. vibrate. jantung rasa sejuk. i tried using those terms but he didnt get it.) --

anyway, do you like this song? we love it. <3 p="">




ps: i just finished a bottle of tart nenas. like seriously.

The raya post

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Hi

First and foremost! Selamat hari raya! Maaf zahir dan batin! Xoxo

Whew what took so long for a hari raya post? The end of ramadhan, the whole hari raya thing & the hari raya aftermath. We ended ramadhan at husband's kampung. First raya there. Second raya at mine. How was it you ask? It was awesome like seriously. I didnt know what to expect spending hari raya away from home for the first time in my life. So yeah, i was pretty sad. But my in laws are so amazing. And im not saying that lightly. I mean, my mom in law with her amazing dishes. My sisters in laws with the cookies and cakes. The males with fireworks. It was a very happening raya indeed. And man, the raya morning. That hand shakings and kissings and huggings sessions, we never have that in kota bharu. Idk about other families, but back in my kampung, we would be just like 'hey sorry man, happy raya to you' and that's it. At my in law's we get to have a real speech and tears and sooo much of hugging. It was very refreshing for me. I mean yes, i cried.. and idk why. Lol. And oh, when i was trying to apologise to husband for any of my wrongdoings, i cried but i also laughed. Like it was weird.. but also i was overwhelmed. Husband smiled like he was blushing or something. Lol. I think the whole thing was lovely. I will definetely make it a tradition for our little family in the future. And thank you abah and mak and along for all your advices and love.

The eating and feasting after that was even lovelier, i was introduced to a lot of jawa dishes, and how to eat them. Mostly just ways of our family eat them.. Love everything on the table. So we went to nenek and atok house, mil's relatives and also husband's friend's house. Hmm everyone was so nice.. i wish the first day of raya was longer. I ate at every house okay! I was full but i tried to make room for more food. Just because everything was so delicious. Nope i dont regret it. Lol.

The raya we spent at my kampung wasnt much of raya left. Mil kirim some for ibu, rendang, kuah kacang etc so we indulged on the dishes and everyone loves my mil's cooking im so proud. Haha. Other than that, we spent raya shopping near siam and jalan2. Sokay one because next year will be my turn. Hew hew. Plus, raya haji also my turn. Kikiki. You see, marriage is give and take. Because after raya kota bharu, we went back to husband's kampung and walla mil made laksa. Like she knew i was craving for it. Please dont judge my appetite.

All in all, i miss hari raya so much. I dont want it to end. I want lemang. I want rendang. I want nasi impit kuah kacang. I want lontong. I want satay. I want sambal kering. I want tart nenas. I want ayam kicap. I want alllll the food there is. All i mean all. Ok so is anyone organizing open house? Anyone?

Ps : you see, housewives also have problem getting used to regular chores after long breaks. I need to sync my head to constant cleaning and seriously focus on gardening. Heck yeah!

Ramadhan Random

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Hi

Reality bergelar umi adalah bila hang out dengan orang yg dah kawin, ada anak.. topik perbualan pun pasal anak demam, anak minum susu ape, anak bangun sahur jgk ke..

Kalau ada kawan single, tanya dorang buat ape time senggang, hobby, thoughts on current issues. Jangan tanya bila nak kawin, mane boyfriend, mane girlfriend.

Dengan kawan yg dah kawin tapi belum ada anak, jangan tanya bila nak ada anak. Bagi je anak kita main ngn dorang. Haha. Berkattt. Bia senang melekat bak kata kak long petir. Lol.

Ps: ape achievement ramadhan? Ape? Rasa2 boleh bangga dengan diri sendiri tak pagi raya nanti? #tanyadirisendiri

Langit Semut

I can see the sky

The birds are flying

Clouds are moving by

My heart is light

The moon will be my witness tonight

In my dreams I see myself fly

Terbang

Terbang tinggi

Walau tanah di kaki

Kan ku cari langit

Terbang

Terbang tinggi

Awan biru menanti

Bersama pelangi

Always thought that I

Could be own my own

But you made me feel alive

And I don't feel alone

Terbang

Terbang tinggi

Walau tanah di kaki

Kan ku cari langit

Terbang

Terbang tinggi

Awan biru menanti

Bersama pelangi

Terbang

Terbang tinggi

Walau tanah di kaki

Kan ku cari langit

Terbang

Terbang tinggi

Awan biru menanti

Bersama pelangi

I can see the sky

The birds are flying

satu hari ayah pernah cakap ngan saya. "kakak ni tinggi imginasi". so i laughed. sebab kalau saya tinggi imaginasi saya dah menulis buku sekarang ni.. bukan blog ni. tapi tanya jugak la kenapa ayah cakap macam tu.. ayah pun cerita pasal suatu petang. kitorang tengah lepak sama2. saya masa tu still sekolah rendah. kitorang tengah tengok semut berjalan.. sederet.. bawak makanan etc. so saya dengan yakin letak tapak tangan kiri atas barisan semut tu. tangan kanan tunjuk langit. "ayah, itu langit kita" referring to the sky. "ini langit semut" tunjuk bawah tapak tangan kiri. hmm. ya saya masih ingat lagi hari tu. ayah cakap ayah terkejut. so ayah diam lama.. baru gelak. so yeah, i'm a special kind of weird. cakap tak pernah nak pikir dulu. main hambur je. kalau fikiran normal takpe jugak. ni pelik2. haha. k. tu je. 


ok, rindu ayah..