Love is singing to muse with you

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"Nape ko nak kawin ngan aku"

"Sebab aku dah penat mencari Ansari. Ko power ko tau tak."

Perempuan pelupa, ini awak jangan lupa.

bila semakin menjengah birthday suami, semakin tak tau nak buat kek ape, tak tau nk beli hadiah ape (oleh kerana suami tak suka surprise, sy memang straight forward je, abg im buying you perfume. Pastu dia cakap, takyah lah. Beli wallet.) Haha senang keje tapi macam nak belikan electric shaver tu. Sebab nampak gigih nau gi beli gillate. Idk why im blogging this. Anyway, esok mala and her little family is coming. You know, red warrior, weekend, football. Gomorr! In a related news, hubby is a red warrior fan too. Mehehe.

Ps: tengah layan muse pada hari jumaat. Because it takes us to 2004. :*

Gary the snail

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Hi

I feel like a terrible mother sometimes. I feel like i have failed my daughter. And that whatever i do wasnt good enough. For her. For us.

Today she touched a snail. A living freaking snail. I dont know which part exactly but im sure it was moving. Tentacles and every slimy thing was outside of the shell i suppose. We were at the porch. I was done hanging the laundry. Grabbed her yellow ball wanted to play with her. And i was taking her picture too. Hubby was at the nearest store buying eggs.

I mean, thank God i looked at what she was doing. If i were not? God knows what will happen. Ok now i feel like a bad mom again. Arghh

Truth is, i disappoint myself a lot concerning the matter of taking care of my daughter. It feels like i can do more. I should do more. Im expected to do more. And i settle for the average.

New life goal :

• Make zahra happy
• Make zahra feel safe
• Kiss zahra a lot
• Hug zahra a lot
• Feed zahra a lot
• Bath her 4 to 5 times a day
• Talk to zahra
• Respond to her with full attention when she babbles 
• Do motor skill and sensory activity with zahra a lot
• Hug her and look into her eyes when she breastfeeds
• Read to her a lot
• Pray with her and make doa with her tiny hands

I have not done enough of those. And maybe there are other things that need to be add up. Will update my life goal from time to time. Btw, zahra is asleep in the swing. After "helping" umi in the kitchen, baking vanilla butter cake for ayah. She squashed the margarine. She's a little faster now. We have to keep the shower door closed at all times because she might come out all wet from playing with the water. And keep the front door closed too. And the cherry to the cake, the stairs. Oh how she loves the stairs.

fire meet gasoline

sia

Ps: baking project is on. Im taking biskut raya orders. Anyone interested? Hehe. Oh btw, happy teachers day. As a former kindergarten teacher, i want to say, i love all of my students, especially the one who asked me what teacher means. :)

Hot daddies

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This was taken long ago. During our housewarming party with bestfriends from our matriculation college.

Notice that the 3 dads look glowing. Some say that the older a guy gets, the more kids he has, the hotter they get. Look at my husband. Extra spicy right? Lol jk.

Ps: im just looking for the right mood for grocery shopping. Argh so lazy to drive.

Pps: btw naufal, orked and zahra were born 2 months away from one another. Same year. So, future besties? Hehe

Mothers day

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First of all, happy mothers day to me. Happy mothers day to my ibu & my mak. Happy mothers day to my sister and along. Happy mothers day to every mother in the world. May Allah grant us Jannah for our sacrifices and undivided love towards our babies and families.

Second of all, thank you dear husband for the mothers day presents. Thank you for the hersheys. Thank you for the kinder buenos. Thank you for being my charlie and the chocolate factory. And most of all, thank you for the baking start up kit. Hehe. Ok. Honestly, it was a nice surprise. Even though i kindda knew that you were buying me the oven, mixer etc. (My husband is terrible at keeping secrets and making surprises. He asked me a gazilion times what i need for baking. Too obvious right?) I love them to bits. I loveeee that my oven has light inside it. Haha

Being a mother for more than a year now, taught me a lot of things. From caring a child, taking care of a child, putting up with emotion roller coaster with a child on your hip, everything from a to z, i thank Allah. For the opportunity. For zahra. Everyday is a new day and a new lesson to the both of us. And also to my husband. Being a mother and a wife to zahra and my husband, is the greatest blessing i can ever ask for. Alhamdulillah.

Honestly, you will never know how a mother feels. Until you become one. What lingers in her mind. What she feels about you. About your everyday routine. About who you're being friends with. She thinks about what people think about you. She worries endlessly. And it is true, a mother would die for her baby. Die. Suffer. Starve. Mocked. Anything. For her child.

May all of you female readers will one day experience the joy of being a mother. Amin.

Ps: i baked a simple cake earlier today. My baking skills sure have gone a little rusty. Still can practice for hubby's coming birthday. Gehehe.

Random moon beam

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Hi

Setiap dugaan Allah beri. Setiap kali Allah kata 'no Ansari. Tak boleh. Next time baru boleh' , or such. Mesti ada sebab. Dan something yg lebih baik Allah dah sediakan.

Macam plan yg cancel last minute. Supaya weekend cuti panjang sikit ni boleh spend dgn family hubby.

And my highlight of the weekend is abah dan mak amek daun pandan belakang rumah di bawah cahaya bulan sebab menantu dorang ni nak buat kuih tepung pelita sebab anak dorang tu mengidam. Haha.

Dan bergelak ketawa kat dapur gelakkan anak masing2. Too bad yaya takde. Sebab kalau yaya ada, saya ada geng makan budu. Kitorang makan nasi bertambah2 kut kalau ada budu. *flips hair

Ps: project baking is coming. Project fairy garden is very slow. Bought a few gardening tools tho. Hehe