Pedo Alert

Assalamualaikum

Hi

Im a typical housewife, mother and wife. I like the idea of documenting every moment of 'big' events. But not to the extend of updating facebook status every hour. Or posting pictures of my homemade cooking (well i post pictures of my cakes but that's different because i dont bake much and it is only on instagram). Or hammering keyboards at every feelings that hit me; anger, sadness, happiness. Im more of the average jane who only shares other peoples shares. Who once in a blue moon shares instagram photos, which would be the picture of my daughter and that is it.

My latest find about the internet is that crazy horny phychopaths are smart enough to steal other people's pictures and post them online in porn sites! Worse, they steal pictures of children and categorise them under pornography? What a sick world we live in. And the children's pictures aren't even in nudes or anything like it. I mean, they get turned on just by looking at kids, fully dressed, maybe pose with legs a bit apart from one another (i mean come on, thats how kids sit because of the diapers and maybe because they're kids, they arent meant to sit still), lie down, or just sleeping. It is horrific. Knowing that these crazy people can access my accounts and steal my pictures and masturbate to them. Worse, my baby's pictures. I cant even imagine. Sick!

So as a precaution, i have deleted all of Zahra's pictures online. All. Every single one of them. Every pictures. Every videos. Sayang tak? Sayangggg. But i love her more. Im not going to jeapordise seeing one of her picture (which i uploaded) get on one of those sites. Sickening. I read that harith iskander, tomok and erra fazura's kids pictures are on the sites. I feel sorry for the parents and the babies. But ask ourselves, who to blame but the parents who uploaded the kids' pictures. As an alternative, im talking husband into printing all of our precious pictures and put them in scrapbook albums. Just like old days. Cuter right? From a parent to another, or a future parent, lets just take down all of our kids picture ok. Better, take down ours too.. because when i was scrolling down deleting zahra's pictures, i found my old pictures of which i was not covering my aurat properly. So i just delete all of our pictures.. everyone. To protect everyone else too (do you know that the crazy people can crop our faces and paste them on one of the pornstar's bodies, anything can be done these days ok). Maybe we should calm down with sharing every details of our lives. Being almost 29, i should slowly let this social media thing go.. lol.

Ps : an incident this morning, the land line rang. For quite a while. I was upstairs, pretty annoyed with the ringing and starts asking myself where in the world is my husband. Why cant he answer it. To my surprise, i saw both my husband and zahra looked at the phone while it rang. Just look at it. Standing in front of the tv and LOOK. Puzzled, i asked him "why dont you answer that?" My husband said, "it's 07". "So? It could be your friend". And what he said next cracked me. "Even i dont know our land line number. How would my friends know". Lol

Photograph

Assalamualaikum

Loving can hurt

Loving can hurt sometimes

But it's the only thing that I know

When it gets hard

You know it can get hard sometimes

It is the only thing that makes us feel alive

We keep this love in a photograph

We made these memories for ourselves

Where our eyes are never closing

Hearts are never broken

Times forever frozen still

So you can keep me

Inside the pocket

Of your ripped jeans

Holdin' me closer

'Til our eyes meet

You won't ever be alone

Wait for me to come home

Loving can heal

Loving can mend your soul

And it's the only thing that I know

I swear it will get easier

Remember that with every piece of ya

And it's the only thing we take with us when we die

We keep this love in this photograph

We made these memories for ourselves

Where our eyes are never closing

Our hearts were never broken

Times forever frozen still

So you can keep me

Inside the pocket

Of your ripped jeans

Holdin' me closer

'Til our eyes meet

You won't ever be alone

And if you hurt me

That's OK, baby, only words bleed

Inside these pages you just hold me

And I won't ever let you go

Wait for me to come home 

Oh you can fit me

Inside the necklace you got when you were 16

Next to your heartbeat

Where I should be

Keep it deep within your soul

And if you hurt me

Well, that's OK, baby, only words bleed

Inside these pages you just hold me

And I won't ever let you go

When I'm away

I will remember how you kissed me

Under the lamppost

Back on 6th street

Hearing you whisper through the phone,

"Wait for me to come home."

photograph - ed sheeran




isn't this beautiful.. :)

"In twenty years from now, I don't want to be just another name... In twenty years from now, I still want to be in your life... 

In twenty years from now, I want someone to stop you on the street, Ask you how you're doing, And bring up my name. 

In twenty years from now, I don't want your answer to be, "I haven't seen her in ages." In twenty years from now, I hope you say, "She's waiting for me at home.""

ps: ok here's a funny joke. my roommate told me.. "why does ed has no girlfriend?" "she ran". lmao 

Daddy's day

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Hi

Happy father's day to all fathers around the world, on mars, in whole galaxy and in the black holes. Jk. Happy father's day to my roommate, the blanket thief, fart machine which is also my teddy. Both Zahra and i, love you so much pass the moon and back a gazillion times. Also to my ayah and abah. All of us love you daddies so much.

Dear husband, thank you for keeping us safe and feed us everyday without fail. Thank you for the mornings you take zahra just so i can have a few minutes of extra sleep. Thank you for making her, her milk and feeding her with her favourite food. Thank you for putting up with her cries and tantrums. Thank you for watching hopla with her all day long. Thank you for bathing her, change her diapers. Thank you for singing lullabies to her. Thank you for putting her to bed. Thank you for letting her draw on your body. Thank you for all the games both of you play that makes her giggles so hard that she dreams about playing and talk in her sleep. Thank you for all the thousands of kisses on her face. Thank you for the warm hugs. Thank you for being so patient. Thank you for calming her down. And for calming me down. And above all that, thank you for being so sincere. Knowing everything you have done and what you're doing comes from your heart, makes us love you more and more. We are truly grateful for having you with us. You are our anchor, our super hero, our everything. Thank you.. for all the little things that aren't so little to us. You're so badass baby. Umi syg ayah. <3

Ramadhan kareem to all muslim readers. May all of us utilise this month by doing as many good deeds as possible insyaAllah. Keep a clean heart.

Ps : i'd like to talk about jon snow but that will just grind my gears so i'll skip.

Favourites

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As a human being, zahra has developed favourites all the way through her growing process. Truth is, favourites dont come from other people, it is us, what makes us different. You see, i thought i can shape her the way i want her to be.. i cant. She is who she is. She likes what she likes, she wants what she wants. I mean, we can try persuade her, but it is up to her to decide. And as a mom, i try to give as much freedom as i can and as im allowed to give. I let her choose. I give options. And seeing her choose is actually a wonderful feeling. I feel like she's very human. And actually will grow become a person. An actual person. Who someday will make bigger choices everyday. That i hope, will refer to me and her ayah along the way.

Well, lets see.. her favourites. Right boob over left one i dont know why.She really loves chicken, chicken curry, fried chicken, chicken soup.. anything as long as there is chicken. She really loves water thats why we would take her to the waterfall near husband's kampung everytime we balik kampung. And she'd be jolly grinning to her ears  She has her favourite channel now, baby first in hypp tv. She wont be happy if i change the channel. She likes the steering wheel, we even bought a steering wheel toy for her in the car, so she'd stay in the carseat longer without screaming. And her favourite toys would be her books. Haha she has me as a mom so what do you expect. Her favourite books are the princess series with pop up pictures. She'd ask me to read them a gazillion times i can practically memorise the whole book series. Her favourite person, her ayah.. she literally cant sleep if my husband is out of state for his work so he would leave a shirt he had worn the night before with his smell on it, and i'd put the shirt beside her every night until husband gets home. Or else, she'd be restless during the night and she'll have those little cries i dont even know what. And the both of them will have video calls everyday, husband even cries. -.- i dont know but those two are seriously unseparable. And oh, if zahra hears a motorcycle or a car drove by, she'd think that her ayah is home and runs to the door whispering "ayah ayah". That actually breaks my heart. :( so when the two are together, it would be as if i dont exist.. well, i only exist if zahra needs her sleep or milk. Thanks guys. -.-

Other than that, zahra's favourites will come as she grows up i guess, she still doesnt know colors so she doesnt really care if i put a blue shirt on her, we arent really color coordinated, im not that kind of mom who'd buy a closet full of pink clothes just because she's a girl. And considering im breastfeeding and also giving her formula milk alternately, she has her mood for formula and breast milk.. not to a point she totally resist ummi's milk. She also has discover her writing hand. Guess is she a right handed person or a left handed person? She's a leftyyyy. Yay. Husband is probably the happiest person. I dont know why husband likes a lefty so much. Haha. I remember i was talking to my mom in law about husband.. so mil told me that husband used to told her that he'd only marry a girl if she has perfect teeth and if she's a left handed. So mil told me "takkan mak nak suruh calon2 menulis depan mak.. nah amek ko pen ni tulis". Hahaha. I laughed so hard. And yes, i have perfect teeth and im a lefthanded. *flips hair

Anyway, point is, discovering your daughter's favourites is another definition of happiness. You'd see her as a maturing person, not a baby anymore. I mean, she can choose now, likes and dislikes, its overwhelming for me. And trust me i cant persuade her much because honestly she is as stubborn as i am.

Ps : this season got will end next week. Argh

Well, who knows?

Assalamualaikum

So i was accompanying husband at his usual jogging recreational park near our house. Honestly, that was my first time there. I never knew it would be that beautiful.. despite being in the heart of Kuala Lumpur, which one might think there is no possible way such a place exist, it was mesmerizing. Yes, we can see the highway, traffic and all, but it was surprisingly quite.

Being a milo girl, i was only there as husband's cheerleader. Considering my mom is in town, we left zahra home.. so it was a very me-time i could use as a pause from life. Lol. Sad but true. But not THAT sad in reality. Well, you know the details. Perks of being a full-time housewife.

Anyway, after lots of ponders and uhhhs and ahhhs what a wonderful world, i remember what meowth used to say. Ya, im a pokemon freak. Too much nintendo pokemon ruby i guess.

"We do have a lot in common. The same air, the same Earth, the same sky. Maybe if we started looking at what's the same instead of always looking at what's different,

...well, who knows?"

-- Meowth

Ps: have you listened to the latest muse album? Like whoaa i missed you matt.

Bright

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Bright

I think the universe is on my side
Heaven and Earth have finally aligned
Days are good and that's the way it should be

You sprinkle star dust on my pillow case
It's like a moonbeam brushed across my face
Nights are good and that's the way it should be

You make me sing oh, la, la, La
You make a girl go oh oh
I'm in love, love

Did you see that shooting star tonight?
Were you dazzled by the same constellation?
Did you and Jupiter conspire to get me?
I think you and the Moon and Neptune got it right
'Cause now I'm shining bright, so bright
Bright, so bright

And I see colors in a different way
You make what doesn't matter fade to grey
Life is good and that's the way it should be

You make me sing oh, la, la, la
You make a girl go oh oh
I'm in love, love

Did you see that shooting star tonight?
Were you dazzled by the same constellation?
Did you and Jupiter conspire to get me?
I think you and the Moon and Neptune got it right
'Cause now I'm shining bright so bright
And I get lost in your eyes

Did you see that shooting star tonight?
Were you dazzled by the same constellation?
Did you and Jupiter conspire to get me?
I think you and the Moon and Neptune got it right
I think you and the Moon and Neptune got it right
I think you and the Moon and Neptune got it right*
'Cause now I'm shining bright, so bright
Bright, so bright
And I get lost in your eyes tonight

<3

My roommate's birthday

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Here is a late post of my husband's birthday. His 29th. Hehe old ady. I wanted to write something mushy but i dont want people to puke on their keyboards. Keyboards can be expensive. Lol

But i want to thank the man i love so very dearly with all my heart for being who he is, doing what he's doing and simply for being here. He should know he's an amazing person, kind hearted and honest. And that is even underrated.

Tq for being alive for 29 years, baby. I thank Allah for that. I hope you have learned so much along the way. But if its not much, its ok, because life is teaching us everyday.. and honestly i have so many things to learn too. And im glad you're here with me.. to learn. To hold. And to love. Come and lets grow old together.. for the best is yet to be. <3

Ps: we went to see lil akhdan bakhtiar last night.. we later watched the latest episode of got which is superrrr awesome!