Friday, October 16, 2020

Listen

 assalamualaikum and hi


its friday. kids are watching tv. the little one is still sleeping but she's getting up any second now, because she's a morning person like her dad lol. she loves morning shower. in fact all showers.

this is like the time we found Kodaline.

you know how at some point of time we kinda aren't excited about music. could be because we're stuck with the same playlist since we were 18 or 22, when life was all fast and exciting. at least for me. but my husband introduced me to CHPTRS and the music they made are amazingly beautiful. the kinda music that calms you. if you miss songs that have long lyrics, not the repetitive ones they play on the radio now, this could be it. like it doesn't complicate things. life is just as beautiful as it is ha gitu lol

give it a go. my husband loves all their songs. i particularly love this one.








ps: we're one week into PKPB. cases are pretty high here. pray for all of us. pray for malaysia and the world. i miss the world without covid, dont you?

Thursday, October 8, 2020

Maybe All

Maybe its the sight of him holding our children.
Maybe its the way his neck stretched out (he has long neck).
Maybe its his shoulders.
Maybe its the things he said 16 years ago that he didn't like kids and now we have 3 kids and he'd die for them.
I dont know which, what that makes me love him more. Maybe all of it.

I remember when things were complicated. Funny those were silly things. And these important things in our lives are the easiest things.
My heart is lighter, things run smoother, life makes more sense.
Silly.

Ahh just a midnight post. While watching my husband holds our newborn. I will write about her birth next time.


Love,
Ansari

Tuesday, December 31, 2019

2019

Assalamualaikum and hi..

Well will you look at that. The only post of 2019. Lol. But life has been so kind. And full of love. Lets see, in sum, i tutored for one whole year! Raised my kids! Adopted 2 cats! My marriage is going on stronger than ever, its our 5th year together this year! Families are well and happy.

It has been a wonderful year. I love that we kinda have our own vibes and we dont have to sync up our vibes with others'. Its like i can be whoever i want, my kids can be whoever they want, my husband can be whoever he wants. We water our grass, run our gigs however we want. And family and friends are supportive as much as we support them, so we live in that kind of life now.

But, we are very much looking forward for the future and what it holds. Because we have plans, and our families are growing. Its exciting to be surprised with these amazing things. Our small circle is such a blessing. Im very thankful to Allah for them. Along with everything they bring.

As for 2020, what i can tell you is, life is gonna get bigger and more people in it lol. Well, honestly some plans are going down the drain. But this one blessing is gonna make our life much better, i pray for that.

Well, i dont articulate as well as i used to i guess. But this post is a must. So happy new year, crazy people! Stay crazy! Crazy about everything good okay?!


Put a ribbon round my neck and call me a libertine
I will sing you songs of dreams I used to dream
I will sail away on seas of silver and gold
Until I reach my home
Give me a guitar and I'll be your troubadour
Your strolling minstrel 12th century door to door
I don't know anymore, if that feeling is past will it last
Oh, how can you be sure?
And how do I know if you're feeling the same as me?
And how do I know if that's the only place you want to be?
Give me a stage and I'll be your rock and roll queen
Your 20th century cover of a magazine
Rolling Stones here I come, watch out everyone, I'm singing
I'm singing my song
Give me a festival and I'll be your Glastonbury star
The lights are shining everyone knows who you are
Singing songs about dreams about hopes about schemes
Oh, they just came true
And how do I know if you're feeling the same as me?
And how do I know if that's the only place you want to be?
And how do I know if you're feeling the same as me?
And how do I know if that's the only place you want to be?
And if you want it too, then there's nothing left to do
Let's start a band
And if you want it too, then there's nothing left to do.





Love,
Ansari

Thursday, August 16, 2018

Super Late Raya Post

assalamualaikum and hi!


syawal has finally ended. and hello zulhijjah! and not long after this raya haji pulak kan? so a quick post about our raya this year. honestly we didnt prepare much for raya. only what was essential and we were focusing more on the kids' preps. i dont know, i guess when you have kids, you kind of forget about the world because they are your world haha.

this year's raya we celebrated at my in law's kampung in hulu selangor. as usual, the menu was rendang daging, kuah kacang and ayam kicap. my husband bought a few lemang. all was good i think im still full just by mentioning the food. but rendang daging was da bomb as always (everything was) because my mil is the best cook! also my husband bought a lot of fireworks, the kids love them so much. well maybe zahra not so much because she was scared of the loud sound. everyone else were over the moon, boys kan? lol

we spent 2 days of hari raya there. near subuh the 3rd day raya we head to kota bharu. the first day was all about food dear God i was so full of rendang. and we prayed at the mosque next to our house for solat sunat raya. i brought zahra, she was so excited to go. kept on mentioning about mosque days before raya. couldnt bring muaz because he was still sleeping. after solat raya we gathered and asked for forgiveness from everyone in the family, all the hugging and crying. i love raya morning. i love the tears i dont know why i just cant describe. it was funny i cried but i like it lol. and after that we went to nenek's house and eat some more! lontong! and raya with everyone else there. later we visited my husband's late bestfriend's grave and his family. later that night we went to a relative of my mil's for raya and to my husband's friend's house. the amount of food and biskut raya? A LOT.

the next day we went to sungai klah, my fil's kampung. and oh, i got quite a stomach ache from rendang in naim's house the night before so it was a bit torturous but all was good not long after 4 visits to the loo. it was overwhelming, raya with my fil's family and i got the chance to get to know a lot of abah's family members and staying with them for a while talking about things and seeing my husband and his family mingled with his cousins, it was all great.

like i said, before subuh the day after we went to my kampung and spend the rest of our raya there. even though it was already third day of hari raya, everyone was there including my paksu and maksu and there were a wedding of our relative, so it seemed that raya was no where near ending. also, my husband made a new of kelantanese friends, his colleagues and classmates from his masters class so we got ourselves stuck in a lot of traffic jams but all was worth it because raya is about family and friends. and alhamdulillah for friends and family because they are the ones who made our raya even better. not the cookies or rendang. but family, friends. so thank you mak, abah, ibu and everyone else for making this raya the best so far for us and for zahra and muaz.

not to forget, we had a lot of ramadhan buffet this year. all thanks to my husband lol. also we managed to make time for buka puasa with our close friends and my family in kelantan. so so much food. alhamdulillah too.

ahh raya haji is next week you guys! selamat hari raya aidiladha in advance! eat lots of beef okay? intestines and gear box, all! haha ok then bye <3 p="">



love,
ansari

Tuesday, July 31, 2018

Something Human


"Something Human" MUSE


My circuits have blown
I know it's self imposed
And all I have shared, and all I have loved
Is all I'll ever own
But something has changed
I feel so alive
My life just blew up, I'd give it all up
I'll depressurize
Aahh...
Ten thousand miles left on the road
Aahh...
Five hundred hours 'till I am home
I need something human, human
Human, human
Let's face all our fears
Come out of the shade
Let's burn all the money, absolve all the lies
And wake up unscathed
The big picture is gone
Replaced with visions of you
Now life can begin, I've cleansed all my sins
I'm about to break through
Aahh...
Five thousand miles left on the road
Aahh...
Two hundred hours 'till I am home
I need something human, human
Human, human
And I need the touch
And something human, human, human
Aahh...
Less than a mile left on the road
Aahh...
I will be crawling through your door
I need something human, human
Human, human
And I need your love
And something human, human