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Some days can be gloomy to Ansari.

But alhamdulillah there is her Azrul.

Maybe its that silly walk he has. Maybe its his camel shorts. Maybe its his rayban glasses. Maybe its his shaved moustache. Maybe its his beard. Maybe its the way he laughed with the cashier girl at the gas counter. Maybe its the smile he gave me when he walked back to the car. Maybe its the hand gesture he made signing crazy.

Some things he did purposefuly or accidentally, makes my day better. When i feel like shit and i cant see anything is going right for me, he proves he can turn everything around just by being him.

Thank you my dearest partner in crime, my bolster, my stress ball, my mirror, my anchor, my superman, the one who holds my heart in one hand, the one who fills it just by being present. My bestest friend.

Ps : we played kinect at ibu's house. He's leading at every game especially Just Dance. I cant believe this is happening. My husband dances to girls' songs better than i do. Lol. We should have a picture taken or a video recording our dance moves. We must look like idiot. Me especially, with the bump. XD

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Sebab lately banyak sangat post ibu2 & isteri2 compare2 sesama mereka. Rasa terselam sama. Contohnya, surirumah vs ibu bekerja di luar. Breastfeed vs formula milk feed. Beranak caeser vs beranak normal. The way i see it, ibu2 ni nak rasa dihargai, tu je. Dia rasa tak dihargai oleh family members terutamanya husband, tu yg dia cerita betapa payah nya tugas dan perkara yg dorang terpaksa lalui. Tanpa sedar, topik tu melukakan hati orang lain yg melalui perkara of complete opposite tp realitinya, dia pun berkorban dan bersusah payah demi anak suami dan keluarga. Honestly, mana ada ibu yg nak benda tak elok dekat anak dia. Tolak tepi kes terpencil yg dera anak sendiri. Semua ibu2 nak yg terbaik utk anak dan keluarga dia. Pandangan setiap org berbeza, situasi yg Allah letakkan dia pun berbeza jadi cara dia handle mestilah berbeza. Bila bincang2 pasal ni lama2, kita faham, kau dan aku berbeza tapi niat kita sama. Dan ujian kita berbeza sebab tu cara kita overcome berbeza. Gitu.

I wont go into details each situations sebab sungguh, situasi setiap org berbeza dan macam2. Takde yg sama lah so far sy borak dgn kawan2 ibu2. Tp sy percaya semua orang nak happy. Semua org nak dihargai. Semua org sebenarnya berkorban utk keluarga masing. Korban perasaan, korban cita2, korban penat lelah, korban kesakitan fizikal dan mental. Sape lagi nak faham ibu2 kalau bukan ibu2 yg lain. Kesian kes terjun bangunan sebab tak boleh susukan anak. Entah berapa ramai lagi tekanan kita tak tau. Spread love and positivity. Kindness gives ripples that will come back right at you insyaAllah.

Ps : zahra panggil baby meow. -.-" dah lama tak borak pasal zahra. Next post

Domestic Engineer

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Everyone i used to know must be so proud of me now. I used to be known for my love of sleep and how im a nocturnal. And being an ummi makes me a morning person. I wake up super early every morning and i rarely has power naps. I do morning grocery shopping. In fact, as soon as the Aeon store near our house opens. And i cook 3 meals a day. Do laundry every day. Hahaha even i cant believe the sound of that. But its true. Its 10.49 am and im already bored. I told my husband that im bored because there is "nothing to do". Husband said, wait lah next year, you'll have a handful. God that is so true. So i have a few months of boredom before the chaos. Huhu.

Referring to previous post, i have chosen my road. It was actually my dilema of choosing between working and being a stay at home mom. By working, im not saying that lightly. I mean a job i like, a job i really look forward for years, something i know, something i'd like to learn more, something i would be proud of. Its sad, really. For the record, no, its not a teaching post. I think im meant for more than being a teacher. And i had it in my hand. I was offered a job i thought i didnt get. Remember the job interview i had months ago? They called for a second interview. Its a funny story because i thought i didnt get it when actually they were waiting for my reply. Total misunderstanding. Maybe my lack of understanding work jargons. But they're still interested in having me. But they wanted me to start immediately like a week after that. I consulted my husband. He knows how much i want the job. But both of us know the real issue is zahra. Being clingy parents i cried my heart out that night talking to him about how much im worried about leaving her too soon. We dont even have a chance to look for a proper nursery. I mean, there will always be a nursery who can accept zahra but will it be good enough. Our plan was we take at least a month of eyeing good nursery and scrutinise every details. Why so picky? There are a lot of child abuse cases by nannies. Let alone the kidnapping. And of course because of the fact that zahra is very hard to handle these days. Since she totally drinks formula milk we found her to be easily throwing tantrums and cry a lot just for some silly reasons or no reason at all. Its a phase actually and we're afraid that some people do not know how to cope with that resulting hitting her or scolding her. God forbids. And honestly, my husband worries about that more than i do.

My husband said i should take a few days to think it through. I was so cornered. That company even said the salary is raised a little since their first offer. T.T i asked my mom and my sister. Frankly i would be easier if someone decides it for me. But all of them said it is all up to me. So i guess i should ask Allah. What would a good wife and a good mother do. Of course, stay close to her family. So i go with that. As soon as i told my decision to my husband, he immediately thanked me for choosing to stay home. He knows how much i wanted it so i guess he figures that this is my sacrifice for the family. And oh boy how excited he was when i told him about that. -.- wait wait wait. I told the company about my decision. And they would still wait for me. Huhu. Idk lah in the future kan?

So im 29, married, pregnant with my second baby, with an almost toddler daughter, a stay at home mom. May Allah ease our journey and shower us with endless rizq and love. Same goes to all of you readers too. Some roads are easy. Some are hard. Some are meant for you. Some are meant for others. But if you walk your road proud and happily, even the hardest road be fun. There are obviously so many things for me to learn being a mom, thats why Allah put me here and i thank Him for that. Notice that i write roads and not destinations? Because our destination is the after life. Lets do our best building today for a great tomorrow.

Ps : im a yay close to start writing a book. Argh. I need books.

A fork in my road

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Pernah tak berdiri dekat simpang perati je jalan2 yg ada. Perati org lalu lalang. Perati nun jauh sikit sejauh mata boleh nampak hujung setiap jalan tu. Pernah tak. Perasaan nak kena pilih salah satu jalan tu adalah sangat pundek bak kata suami saya. Tak boleh pilih dua2 sebab duhh badan awak boleh belah dua? Kena pilih satu je. Tah laaa cmane hujung jalan setiap satu tu.. kalau salah pilih macam mana? Kalau jalan tu payah? Banyak lubang? Banyak ular senduk menanti? Barang banyak nak bawak ni.. suami, anak, baby dlm perut. Ya Allah betapa berdenyut kepala beberapa hari ni pikir. Nangis. Bila tanya orang, org suh ikut kata hati. Hati pulak diam membisu kunci diri dalam peti besi. Ketuk2 taknak bukak. Tanya logik akal, dua2 menarik. Sebab akal analisis ape mata nampak je. Atau mungkin saya ni takut amek risiko. Haih mana tak takut.. satu family kena angkut.

Ok. Ada masa lagi. Istikarah.

Ps : atoto

That last 2-ish age

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Being officially 29 is something..... pretty ordinary. I dont feel old as much as i should. I dont feel like im missing things and life walked passed by me. It feels very normal actually. The perk of being born at the end of the year. I kindda felt the age crisis train impact during new years. So, in sum, i actually felt old a long time ago. Idk whether that is a bright side or a dark side of late birthdays. Hmm.

But importantly! I've had my 29th birthday celebrations. Celebration ker.. more like cake cutting ceremony with hubby and zahra and rose smelling up until midnight. Huhu. It was a small 'party'. Thanks to my beloved husband for the amazing cake which he insisted on buying at that particular cake shop just because he has been buying their cakes since he was small and for generations. I wasnt expecting any presents really. Because idk what to ask from him being that my needs are pretty fulfilled and im easily content. Last year he bought me an expensive handbag. I still dont use it as much sebab syg and because its a little heavy for my small shoulders that are already occupied with a toddler and her stuff. When he went out to buy the so legendary cake, i waited in the car for quite a while i was starting to doubt this cake bussiness.. why does it took so long to write a simple note on a cake and pack it. Until husband came up with a box of cake and a bouquet of roses. It really was nice i immediately fell in love with him again. Lol. And the rest was cake eating and getting fat together.

We wanted to save some for our neighbour, but we ate a big piece of it so it wont look as nice to give a few slices. -.-" considering that she 'took care' of our house for more than a week while we were in kelantan and tanjung malim. Huhu sorry aunty. Niat tu ada. So we bought her some fruits instead. ;) niceee

Of 29 years of life:
I wanted to write down every blessings i have but the list can go on for eternity. All i can say is that im grateful for this life and all that it brings. Alhamdulillah. Everyday is a new day. Everyday is filled with surprises. Everyday is another second chance.

Throughout the years i guess i have learned that the past is history but it is a crucial part of which mould us to who we have become today. And the future is really too far away. It cant be predicted and there is absolutely no reason to worry about what is coming for it will come anyway and we will deal with it when its finally here aite? What's important is that we cherish today. Make every moment counts. Give our blood and sweat onto something worth it.

But if we fail today, thats ok too. Because God made us imperfect. We have our own flaws. Its ok to make mistakes. In fact, that is the only way we learn. Be ourselves and whatever comes our way will fit right where it belongs sooner or later.

Hew hew ok i sound a little old. Ehem must be the maturity hormone. Lol. All in all, there is so many things to be grateful for. Look closely. :) and with that i bid you good night. Hasbunallahu wani'mal wakeel.

Ps: tummy is showing a little. They say during second pregnancies, baby bump might appear sooner than during the first pregnancy. Im just so glad husband thinks my bump is cute being that he used to admire my 6 packs. Haha *yes i had 6 packs abs.. even after having zahra B-)