Redemption

assalamualaikum


***pejam mata

rasa tak ombak dalam dada hempas pasir tangkai jantung? jantung jatuh :)

jantung jatuh tu term 2004. being a weird undercover poet, i was describing to husband my chest pain every time he does something sweet (or just because i fell so in love with him). it was so hard to explain that to him because he was a heartless physics freak. so i said, exactly macam jantung jatuh. (kena panah petir. vibrate. jantung rasa sejuk. i tried using those terms but he didnt get it.) --

anyway, do you like this song? we love it. <3 p="">




ps: i just finished a bottle of tart nenas. like seriously.

The raya post

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Hi

First and foremost! Selamat hari raya! Maaf zahir dan batin! Xoxo

Whew what took so long for a hari raya post? The end of ramadhan, the whole hari raya thing & the hari raya aftermath. We ended ramadhan at husband's kampung. First raya there. Second raya at mine. How was it you ask? It was awesome like seriously. I didnt know what to expect spending hari raya away from home for the first time in my life. So yeah, i was pretty sad. But my in laws are so amazing. And im not saying that lightly. I mean, my mom in law with her amazing dishes. My sisters in laws with the cookies and cakes. The males with fireworks. It was a very happening raya indeed. And man, the raya morning. That hand shakings and kissings and huggings sessions, we never have that in kota bharu. Idk about other families, but back in my kampung, we would be just like 'hey sorry man, happy raya to you' and that's it. At my in law's we get to have a real speech and tears and sooo much of hugging. It was very refreshing for me. I mean yes, i cried.. and idk why. Lol. And oh, when i was trying to apologise to husband for any of my wrongdoings, i cried but i also laughed. Like it was weird.. but also i was overwhelmed. Husband smiled like he was blushing or something. Lol. I think the whole thing was lovely. I will definetely make it a tradition for our little family in the future. And thank you abah and mak and along for all your advices and love.

The eating and feasting after that was even lovelier, i was introduced to a lot of jawa dishes, and how to eat them. Mostly just ways of our family eat them.. Love everything on the table. So we went to nenek and atok house, mil's relatives and also husband's friend's house. Hmm everyone was so nice.. i wish the first day of raya was longer. I ate at every house okay! I was full but i tried to make room for more food. Just because everything was so delicious. Nope i dont regret it. Lol.

The raya we spent at my kampung wasnt much of raya left. Mil kirim some for ibu, rendang, kuah kacang etc so we indulged on the dishes and everyone loves my mil's cooking im so proud. Haha. Other than that, we spent raya shopping near siam and jalan2. Sokay one because next year will be my turn. Hew hew. Plus, raya haji also my turn. Kikiki. You see, marriage is give and take. Because after raya kota bharu, we went back to husband's kampung and walla mil made laksa. Like she knew i was craving for it. Please dont judge my appetite.

All in all, i miss hari raya so much. I dont want it to end. I want lemang. I want rendang. I want nasi impit kuah kacang. I want lontong. I want satay. I want sambal kering. I want tart nenas. I want ayam kicap. I want alllll the food there is. All i mean all. Ok so is anyone organizing open house? Anyone?

Ps : you see, housewives also have problem getting used to regular chores after long breaks. I need to sync my head to constant cleaning and seriously focus on gardening. Heck yeah!

Ramadhan Random

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Hi

Reality bergelar umi adalah bila hang out dengan orang yg dah kawin, ada anak.. topik perbualan pun pasal anak demam, anak minum susu ape, anak bangun sahur jgk ke..

Kalau ada kawan single, tanya dorang buat ape time senggang, hobby, thoughts on current issues. Jangan tanya bila nak kawin, mane boyfriend, mane girlfriend.

Dengan kawan yg dah kawin tapi belum ada anak, jangan tanya bila nak ada anak. Bagi je anak kita main ngn dorang. Haha. Berkattt. Bia senang melekat bak kata kak long petir. Lol.

Ps: ape achievement ramadhan? Ape? Rasa2 boleh bangga dengan diri sendiri tak pagi raya nanti? #tanyadirisendiri

Langit Semut

I can see the sky

The birds are flying

Clouds are moving by

My heart is light

The moon will be my witness tonight

In my dreams I see myself fly

Terbang

Terbang tinggi

Walau tanah di kaki

Kan ku cari langit

Terbang

Terbang tinggi

Awan biru menanti

Bersama pelangi

Always thought that I

Could be own my own

But you made me feel alive

And I don't feel alone

Terbang

Terbang tinggi

Walau tanah di kaki

Kan ku cari langit

Terbang

Terbang tinggi

Awan biru menanti

Bersama pelangi

Terbang

Terbang tinggi

Walau tanah di kaki

Kan ku cari langit

Terbang

Terbang tinggi

Awan biru menanti

Bersama pelangi

I can see the sky

The birds are flying

satu hari ayah pernah cakap ngan saya. "kakak ni tinggi imginasi". so i laughed. sebab kalau saya tinggi imaginasi saya dah menulis buku sekarang ni.. bukan blog ni. tapi tanya jugak la kenapa ayah cakap macam tu.. ayah pun cerita pasal suatu petang. kitorang tengah lepak sama2. saya masa tu still sekolah rendah. kitorang tengah tengok semut berjalan.. sederet.. bawak makanan etc. so saya dengan yakin letak tapak tangan kiri atas barisan semut tu. tangan kanan tunjuk langit. "ayah, itu langit kita" referring to the sky. "ini langit semut" tunjuk bawah tapak tangan kiri. hmm. ya saya masih ingat lagi hari tu. ayah cakap ayah terkejut. so ayah diam lama.. baru gelak. so yeah, i'm a special kind of weird. cakap tak pernah nak pikir dulu. main hambur je. kalau fikiran normal takpe jugak. ni pelik2. haha. k. tu je. 


ok, rindu ayah..

Pedo Alert

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Hi

Im a typical housewife, mother and wife. I like the idea of documenting every moment of 'big' events. But not to the extend of updating facebook status every hour. Or posting pictures of my homemade cooking (well i post pictures of my cakes but that's different because i dont bake much and it is only on instagram). Or hammering keyboards at every feelings that hit me; anger, sadness, happiness. Im more of the average jane who only shares other peoples shares. Who once in a blue moon shares instagram photos, which would be the picture of my daughter and that is it.

My latest find about the internet is that crazy horny phychopaths are smart enough to steal other people's pictures and post them online in porn sites! Worse, they steal pictures of children and categorise them under pornography? What a sick world we live in. And the children's pictures aren't even in nudes or anything like it. I mean, they get turned on just by looking at kids, fully dressed, maybe pose with legs a bit apart from one another (i mean come on, thats how kids sit because of the diapers and maybe because they're kids, they arent meant to sit still), lie down, or just sleeping. It is horrific. Knowing that these crazy people can access my accounts and steal my pictures and masturbate to them. Worse, my baby's pictures. I cant even imagine. Sick!

So as a precaution, i have deleted all of Zahra's pictures online. All. Every single one of them. Every pictures. Every videos. Sayang tak? Sayangggg. But i love her more. Im not going to jeapordise seeing one of her picture (which i uploaded) get on one of those sites. Sickening. I read that harith iskander, tomok and erra fazura's kids pictures are on the sites. I feel sorry for the parents and the babies. But ask ourselves, who to blame but the parents who uploaded the kids' pictures. As an alternative, im talking husband into printing all of our precious pictures and put them in scrapbook albums. Just like old days. Cuter right? From a parent to another, or a future parent, lets just take down all of our kids picture ok. Better, take down ours too.. because when i was scrolling down deleting zahra's pictures, i found my old pictures of which i was not covering my aurat properly. So i just delete all of our pictures.. everyone. To protect everyone else too (do you know that the crazy people can crop our faces and paste them on one of the pornstar's bodies, anything can be done these days ok). Maybe we should calm down with sharing every details of our lives. Being almost 29, i should slowly let this social media thing go.. lol.

Ps : an incident this morning, the land line rang. For quite a while. I was upstairs, pretty annoyed with the ringing and starts asking myself where in the world is my husband. Why cant he answer it. To my surprise, i saw both my husband and zahra looked at the phone while it rang. Just look at it. Standing in front of the tv and LOOK. Puzzled, i asked him "why dont you answer that?" My husband said, "it's 07". "So? It could be your friend". And what he said next cracked me. "Even i dont know our land line number. How would my friends know". Lol